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18th-Jun-2022 05:49 pm - Intro entry
dave1
About myself ... My name is David Ano. I am a graphic designer/illustrator working at a local alternative newspaper. I dream of being a comic artist or writer, however being a father of five children takes up most my time.

About this journal/blog ... When I started, I used this LJ to post illustrations and comics. I still do from time to time, but less frequency. I then started using this journal as a personal diary. My daughter was in the hospital, our house burned down, I lost my job. It was a very hectic time. The problem is there are some people who only read my lj because I was an artist. So when crisis died down, I tried to make less diary posts (or moved the more wordy ones to another journal). More illustrations came back. Then in 2008 the elections came and I started getting editorial. I started getting my political comments on all sorts of NPR call-in shows. As the elections ended and many of the people who I voted for went into office, I had less to complain about. In 2009, my wife gave birth to our fourth daughter and I was also unemployed for most the year. I stopped paying the internet bill and stopped posting as much. In 2010, I got an awesome new job that I like to post about it. I am making political posts again. And every once in a while i still post an illustration.

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Also check out my old website a http://webpages.charter.net/davidano/ that has my old comics, my design portfolio and other stuff.

15th-May-2019 10:09 pm - More Null Than Void
dave1

My new favorite song!
"More Null Than Void"
Cosmicity (Mark Nicholas)
14th-May-2019 11:45 am(no subject)
dave1
A lot of things are happening in my life right now. I am getting a divorce, moved to Ann Arbor, and starting my life from scratch. I have started a new art blog at davidanoartist.tumblr.com
You can also find me on Twitter @davidanoartist

If you live in the Ann Arbor area, send me an email to thedavidano at gmail dot com.
10th-Feb-2019 11:43 am - My me-too story
dave1
I'm not sure where to start. But I guess the beginning was when I was in my late teens, early twenties. I never really knew much about relationships. I started dating when I was 18. But I never knew anything about who I was or about what I should be in a relationship. I had depression most of my life and this was the first girl who told me I was important and that she cared about me. This changed my life so much I got engaged to my first girlfriend. As with any relationship, there were ups and downs. While she helped me through my depression, I still didn't who know who I was. It ultimately made an unhealthy relationship.

I broke up with my fiance after I found myself being attracted to other men. Since sexuality was not taught to me, I did not know whether I was straight, gay, bi or even what any of those meant. Since I was engaged to my first girlfriend, I never got to explore my sexuality. So I broke up with my fiance and started dating other people.

While it seemed contrary, the first person I dated after my break up, was another girl. She was somebody I met online who shared interests with me. We spent a lot of time on the phone. I decided to meet her in person and drove to the dorm room that she lived in.

The date went well and we started making out. Soon it started getting more serious. It moved from kissing to foreplay. There was a part of me that did want to make love to her, but I wasn't ready. I was attracted to her and I have to admit there what's a part of me that wanted to have sex. However, it was moving very fast. She pushed me down on her bed and started taking off my clothes. I didn't know what I wanted, but I did know that if I was going to have sex I wanted to use protection. I said no. She did not stop.

I lied there as she forced herself on me. She held me down and kept going even though I said no. At that moment I was in a state of shock. I really had no idea what to do. I couldn't understand what was going on. I was okay with making out and this was a person I liked, but somehow it was all going wrong. When it was over, I didn't know how to deal with it. Part of me blamed myself. Somehow we kept on going that night without talking about what happened.

To be honest, I don't remember what exactly happened next. This happened over 20 years ago. My mind was also not in the right place. I do remember spending the night there. I also remember us having sex again after this happened. In my mind the deed had been done. If she had an STD or had gotten pregnant, then I was already screwed. For some reason, it didn't matter anymore. I really didn't fully understand the concept of consent, but it felt like we were past that point.

I couldn't understand how a person I cared about could do that to me. I also truly believe that she didn't know/understand what she was doing. Even to this day, I have trouble blaming her for what happened. Regardless, my life changed quite a bit after that day. I faced a number of humiliations. First thing I did was get an STD test. Soon the words "date rape" became evident. Although, even that did not come easy. I had college professors say that men could not be raped. I had friends and acquaintances make fun of me, saying that I was just trying to get attention. Several times I was challenged to justify the term of rape and I had to explain how a woman could have raped me. I also had trouble dating women after that day. I did find some romantic relationships but couldn't have sex. One girl I was dating left me after I told her what happened. At one point I decided to be purely gay as it made things easier in relationships. I had to go to therapy for quite a long time before I came to terms with what happened to me.

I wanted to tell my story because of the me-too movement. People should know that men can get raped too. I don't want sympathy. Ultimately, what did not kill me, made me stronger. I also found that being gay for a time in my life helped me see things from women's points of view. I had men hit on me and treat me like a piece of meat like I imagine women getting treated like. Eventually I came to the identity of being bisexual and married my wife of 17 years. She too has been sexually abused in her past, but that is her story. There are way too many stories of women out there being abused, assaulted, raped, discriminated against, etc. I guess it is time to break the silence and to start making change.
9th-Aug-2015 07:17 pm(no subject)
dave1


The original Glass–Steagall Act of 1933 worked for 66 years until it was repealed in 1999. Originally it limited commercial banks activities and affiliations with investment banks and securities firms. Once repealed, those banks went on to cause the U.S. financial crisis of 2007-2009 and the Global financial crisis of 2008-2009. The tax payers bailed out banks that were “too big to fail”, however we need to make sure this dos not happen again.



https://www.change.org/p/barack-obama-u-s-house-of-representatives-u-s-senate-support-s-1709-21st-century-glass-steagall-act-of-2015?recruiter=1637279&utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=copylink
19th-Aug-2014 09:07 am(no subject)
dave1
If you live in Michigan, please email me at david.ano at g mail dot com.
12th-Jul-2014 03:14 pm(no subject)
dave1
In case you are wondering, I moved my blog to tumblr.

http://losttoy.tumblr.com

For ONLY personal journal entries, see http://losttoy.tumblr.com/tagged/davidano

For art and illustration entries, see http://losttoy.tumblr.com/tagged/art

Thank you.
16th-Oct-2013 12:53 am - please sign and repost
dave1
Sign the petition telling Boehner to stop the Tea Party games, end the shutdown, and avert default »
SIGN HERE: http://dccc.org/Stop-The-Shutdown
Please REPOST
30th-Sep-2013 11:08 am - BAM Too! printer's proof
creative


I “meet” David Recine in early 2004. I had been doing a webcomic for about a year, but it proofed hard to update my site on a regular basis. So I started an online comic anthology called Your Comic Here to have people submit their one-shot comic to be published on my various sites. Many people never had a website of their own sent comics to be published, others sent comics to promote their own website. Either way we all had fun. Recine was one of the artists that sent not one, but two comics to Your Comic Here.

After college, Recine took on the impossible task of publishing the end all collection of mini-comics in “BAM! Big Ass Mini” in late 2006. BAM! was a giant anthology of mini-comics and other independent comics collected into a 500 page professionally printed trade paperback. It featured creators from all over the globe and from all walks life. Every kind of style and genre was there from comedy, satire/parody, gag, slice-of-life, journal, adventure/fantasy, manga inspired, and just plain artsy comics, all in one book! I found out about the book in 2008. I wrote a review for it at some websites and emailed Recine.

In January 2009, Recine stayed on as an advisor, but passed the publishing duties to J. M. Hunter and I became the submission editor and art director of the second volume, entitled BAM Too! We solicited some talented artists, like Ignatz Award winner Jeffrey Brown, Ignatz Award nominee Matt Bellisle, mini-comic legend Matt Feazell, ” Roddie” Best Cartoonist winner Wilbur Dawbarn, as well as artists Jerry Stanford, David DeGrand, Matthew Reidsma, Joe Decie, Edward J Grug III, Mark Campos, Jonathan Baylis, EdQuinby and about 60 other amazing artists.

Well, we got a lot of great submissions, however production hit a lot of roadblocks. We made some mistakes, had a handful of arguments, and had problems with various printers. But what really happened is that life got in the way. There were a couple of marriages, several babies were born, people were hospitalized, deaths in the family, and various production staff got burned out. I gave up when I was working 50-60 hours at job and coming home to five kids. But, Hunter never gave up. He and Barry Rodges picked up where I left off and did an awesome job.

Above it the printers proof. Now that means, expect to see the book on sale soon!!! It only took four years to produce, but we did it!!!
5th-Sep-2013 10:47 am - What is art?
creative


What is art? Art is not the paint on the canvas. That is just the product. Art is picking up the brush, or pen, or pencil, or whatever. Art is an action. Once you complete a piece, you show it to the world. Either to communicate a message or to get affirmation. You say, “look what I have done. Do you like it?” After that, the painting or illustration does not belong to you. You can only be an artist by picking up that brush and stare once more into that blank canvas and create another product.
4th-Sep-2013 10:49 am - Draw Something and Tumblr
creative


So ... yeah. All I do these days is stay home, watch the kids, and play Draw Something (the first version since Draw 2 does not work very well on my mobile device). At least I am getting some artistic practice. One of these days I will do a real illustration or maybe get brave enough to draw a comic. In the mean time, you can join me by searching the username: TheDavidAno

Also, I am posting most of my Draw Somethings like the one above on losttoy.tumblr.com
28th-Aug-2013 03:58 pm - variant
banjo Dave
Signal boost ...
http://decentkid.tumblr.com/post/58978288848/variant-a-zine-for-non-binary-trans-people-im



variant: a zine for non-binary trans* people

i’m looking for submissions for a zine (working title ‘variant’) by and for non-binary trans* people expressing anger, joy, fears & generally sharing feelings & emotions around being trans* & non-binary, and how that intersects with other parts of our lives and identities.
the idea of the zine is to make something by non-binary folks for the consumption of other non-binary people. i’m looking for fiction, non-fiction, poems, stories, comics, illustrations, paintings - literally anything you can send in.
i’m happy to edit & put it together, but would love anyone with cut-and-paste or graphic design skills (or with reading skills who can help check content because i’m not great with academic language) who wants to help out to get involved too.
guide for submissions:
no 101-style introduction-to-being-trans* content. i don’t want a glossary of terms in this zine because i’m honestly sick of explaining myself. this is by and for non-binary people; not watered down material made for the consumption of cis people so they can ‘understand’ us better.
nothing racist, sexist, misogynistic, transmisogynistic, ableist or transphobic. that’s why i want help with peeps willing to read content - i have a lot of trouble understanding academic language and would hate to accidentally publish something discriminatory or hateful.
nsfw content is totally welcome and in general there’s no real restrictions on content.
literally any submission is welcome - stuff scanned from the back of a napkin, just a .txt file of some thoughts and feelings, etc. i’ll edit stuff together, so you don’t have to submit finished pages or anything.
pls submit any pictures in a relatively high quality, in a jpg or png format. make sure they work in a black and white format too.
i am not going to police anyone’s identity for this: if you identify as non-binary and trans* then cool pls submit!
submissions close 30 september (message me for deets, my askbox is open), and the zine will be released in an online digital format. :) it might be made into a print version if i can work out how to do that: tips are appreciated!
for more info please don’t hesitate to contact me. if there are questions or bits you don’t understand or whatever (or you wanna get involved!) then again pls contact me! :) i am also welcome to ideas from non-binary trans* folks who want to mold the zine in a different direction, i just really want to forge some community and do something together!
pls share and signal boost!!
variant: a zine for non-binary trans* people

i’m looking for submissions for a zine (working title ‘variant’) by and for non-binary trans* people expressing anger, joy, fears & generally sharing feelings & emotions around being trans* & non-binary, and how that intersects with other parts of our lives and identities.

the idea of the zine is to make something by non-binary folks for the consumption of other non-binary people. i’m looking for fiction, non-fiction, poems, stories, comics, illustrations, paintings - literally anything you can send in.

i’m happy to edit & put it together, but would love anyone with cut-and-paste or graphic design skills (or with reading skills who can help check content because i’m not great with academic language) who wants to help out to get involved too.

guide for submissions:

no 101-style introduction-to-being-trans* content. i don’t want a glossary of terms in this zine because i’m honestly sick of explaining myself. this is by and for non-binary people; not watered down material made for the consumption of cis people so they can ‘understand’ us better.
nothing racist, sexist, misogynistic, transmisogynistic, ableist or transphobic. that’s why i want help with peeps willing to read content - i have a lot of trouble understanding academic language and would hate to accidentally publish something discriminatory or hateful.
nsfw content is totally welcome and in general there’s no real restrictions on content.
literally any submission is welcome - stuff scanned from the back of a napkin, just a .txt file of some thoughts and feelings, etc. i’ll edit stuff together, so you don’t have to submit finished pages or anything.
pls submit any pictures in a relatively high quality, in a jpg or png format. make sure they work in a black and white format too.
i am not going to police anyone’s identity for this: if you identify as non-binary and trans* then cool pls submit!
submissions close 30 september (message me for deets, my askbox is open), and the zine will be released in an online digital format. :) it might be made into a print version if i can work out how to do that: tips are appreciated!

for more info please don’t hesitate to contact me. if there are questions or bits you don’t understand or whatever (or you wanna get involved!) then again pls contact me! :) i am also welcome to ideas from non-binary trans* folks who want to mold the zine in a different direction, i just really want to forge some community and do something together!

pls share and signal boost!

http://decentkid.tumblr.com/post/58978288848/variant-a-zine-for-non-binary-trans-people-im
14th-Aug-2013 04:54 pm - my tumblr
dave1
BTW, I post stuff at losttoy.tumblr.com too
5th-Aug-2013 08:34 pm - Draw Something
creative


I have been playing Draw Something. My user name is TheDavidAno . Join me for a game?
6th-Mar-2013 12:49 pm - To This Day
meta
This is an amazing video. More people should watch it.

dave1
What is up with all these Mac OS cats? Will they ever have an Mac OS 11,or will just keep on adding decimal points? "I am now using OS 10.23.72.8.12.6"??? I don't know a Jaguar from a Panther. They had Lion, but now it is Mountain Lion ... what is next, Sea Lion?



I am so curmudgeonly ... I am going over rants about them software companies and their updates!!!! "We have updated our software so you can't use your old computers anymore ... we have updated our computers so you can't use your old software anymore ..." I am sorry ... I just can't afford to update every damn month. None of these updates are actually necessary, nothing important has changed other than: now the windows are more "jell-like", now they are more "metallic". B'ah! get your damn updates off my lawn!!!



Also uninstall Java or else stray cats will enter your computer and eat your cheeseburgers!
16th-Jan-2013 04:49 pm - Personal Update
portrait
I don't tend to make personal updates much anymore. I have another journal that I dump my psychological ramblings. Although, I should at least say something here. I am alive, but not quite well.

Been going to a lot of doctor appointments recently. My blood pressure is way too high, as well as my cholesterol. I am "mildly depressed". They are also testing me for sleep disorders, and possibly sleep apnea. Stress is causing a lot of my physical problems, but now that I have learned of this, I only feel more stressed.

Work has been stressful. I am not sure what else I should say about that in a public post.

Kids are back to school after winter break. Everybody was sick during their vacation. Clara was in the Emergency Room all Christmas Day because she was dehydrated from throwing up so much. Wren went to the Urgent Care with an ear2 infection and got antibiotics. Everybody is doing better now.

The landlord says he intends to sell the house we are renting from him in about 3 years. Sydney is calling up a debt solution non-profit to improve our credit. We are going to start a rent with option to buy that will put aside 20% down in three years. Then we will get a mortgage so we can buy the house ourselves.

I saw the final proofs to BAM Too!. So, it has taken four years from when we all talked about doing a sequel to the first BAM! The Big Ass Mini-comic. We have made a LOT of mistakes and had a lot of fights along the way. After one delay after another. It is finally done. Now it just needs to be sent to the printers. I got to say ... it looks like an AWESOME book! I am not sure how to feel about it. It has been like a dream this whole time. Holding BAM Too! in my hands will be like waking up and finding the feather on my bedside table.

So I guess that is it for now.
12th-Dec-2012 03:29 pm - More Michigan Madness
dave1
LANSING - The Republicans in the Michigan legislature have passed a bill today that would allow hospitals, nursing homes or any other health care center to deny services that run contrary to the religious teachings or conscious of its leaders. This so-called conscience objection bill would open the doors for healthcare providers, insurance companies and employers to disallow healthcare services to anyone they find objectionable, such as LGBT people and women seeking family planning services including birth control and abortions.

Sign the petition:
http://www.change.org/petitions/michigan-state-legislature-stop-senate-bill-975-religious-liberty-and-conscience-protection-act-2
11th-Dec-2012 01:21 pm - Michigan needs help
dave1

Dear ACLU Supporter,

Governor Snyder promised that his administration was going to focus on one thing: improving Michigan's economy.

Instead, last week the public was locked out of the Capitol while legislators forced through legislation that endangers Michigan women, workers, and families.

We're calling on Governor Snyder to stand with Michiganders and:

  • Veto extreme measures that put women's health at risk and limit insurance coverage of reproductive care.
  • Veto the last minute ban on abortion coverage that legislators snuck onto an unrelated insurance bill.
  • Veto measures that would allow medical professionals to discriminate against sick people in need of care.
  • Veto so-called "right to work" legislation that was passed while hundreds were locked out.

Today, thousands of hardworking people from all over the state have gathered in Lansing to rally for democracy, for working families, and for women's health.

Can't make it to Lansing? Urge Governor Snyder to veto legislation that's bad news for Michigan.

Thank you for defending the Michigan we believe in,

ACLU of Michigan
www.aclumich.org

dave1
   
Sponsor: Rep. Marcy Kaptur [D-OH9]   New Cosponsor: Rep. Anna Eshoo [D-CA14]

Most people do not know that was the Republican lead Congress that passed the "Gramm–Leach–Bliley Financial Services Modernization Act of 1999" that went on to cause the U.S. financial crisis of 2007-2009 and the Global financial crisis of 2008-2009. With the passage of this Act, it repealed Glass-Steagall act of 1932 .... this allowed commercial banks, investment banks, securities firms, and insurance companies were allowed to consolidate and went on to create sub-prime mortgage loans and new financial products such as the securitization of loan obligations of various sorts and credit default swaps that later became know as toxic assets. While we have done much to recover from the recession, we need to do more to make sure it does not happen again. That is why we need your support the H.R. 1489: Return to Prudent Banking Act of 2011 that is still referred to the house committee.

Go to http://www.change.org/petitions/pass-the-return-to-prudent-banking-act-and-restore-glass-steagall
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